Sunday, July 31, 2005
i wonder if u remembered.. cos i do...
it has been a topsy turvy weekend for me =P
i strained mi right hamstring on fri nite and mi right quad today... but it was a result of things dat i enjoyed doing and can easily be healed..
but da main thing dat hurts right now cant be healed..
jase [@] 9:16:00 PM
Saturday, July 30, 2005
ive been sitting here for like close to an hour for you to say hi to me... has it come to da stage where u wun even initiate a convo on msn?
maybe it's jus me being too emotional..
i realise dat a smile lasts onli a while and it fades away..
why am i back to ground so quickly? cant i float a little more..
jase [@] 6:51:00 PM
Friday, July 29, 2005
today was da happiest fri nite ive had in 7months... wait.. maybe even a year even =P
im realli sore but very happy =) and da followin weeks wld be jus as good =) well there's focus and den mage wif da youth! den i can mix wif bof sides.. i realli enjoyed being part of youth agn.. it was jus so comforting and i actually feel realli comfy and wanted there..
i think dat smile i got in da midst of things also kinda set da tone for me =) thanks for smiling to me =) i realli appreciate it.. oh btw i am following wad u asked me to do.. trying mi best
ok i paid up for gravi camp so i cant back out anymore =P haha
wheeee.. sugar high =P
jase [@] 11:04:00 PM
Thursday, July 28, 2005
well.. is it a good sign? i realli dunno..
hmm
wait i still feel realli sad and broken.. so dat means it wasnt something good..
by the time dec comes.. i dunno..
i realli dun think i can last another 6 months...
jase [@] 7:09:00 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
i haf given it mi all.. wait lemme rephrase.. i haf given YOU mi all.. now i jus await whatever returns dat may befall me..
turn away from sensibility..
please give us another chanceechoes
jase [@] 8:15:00 PM
Monday, July 25, 2005
oh thanks for da talk ange.. i wil do wad u told me for one week..
ACTS..
wo hui jia you
jase [@] 4:05:00 PM
i was thinking about wad i wanted for mi bdae prez.. but even if someone managed to fund it.. she wun come over.. and even if she was somehow managed to be forced to.. it jus wun be da same..
u say it's nothing.. but it all starts from there..
i always pictured myself going back at da end of da year wif someone dat will greet me wif open arms and more.. but i guess dat dream is shattered..
jase [@] 11:12:00 AM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
hey cand get well ok =) stay strong u hear! im praying for you..
well went for another 21st..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN 5 DAYS JEREMY! haha hope your day was wad u wanted =)
agn i was put thru da entire paces of being "uncool".. well i hafta get used to it i suppose..
all dis jus reminds me how alone i am.. how many pple wld i ask for mi 21st? 4-5... oh wells...
i never felt worse den yesterday..
jase [@] 11:22:00 PM
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
some pple would call me "obsessive".. desperate.. hm maybe even stupid or shortsighted..
say wad u want.. raise ur hands onli when uve lost something so special dat u cant live w/o..
-looks around-
sees 2 hands out of 100, looks around at the restyup thot so..
looks across the room to someone leavingur mi special angel..
jase [@] 9:42:00 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
yupyup i guess da hol wait is up.. u know im kinda disappointed in her.. say one thing but in da end never fulfil it.. it's realli kinda sad.. i even went to gravi cos you said you wld be there and we wld catch up.. and wad do u know.. i tried to talk to you and u shrugged me of.. well story of mi life.. being shrugged off..
do not underestimate me well.. u know there's not a minute dat passes dat i dun see something dat reminds me of you.. be it da sun.. grass.. trees.. stars.. flowers..
i yearn for you..
jase [@] 7:31:00 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
i want to give it another try.. i realli do.. but all ive seen and felt tonite was a sense of awkwardness.. i jus dun fit in at all.. why do u cont to make it so hard for me.. cant u see im tryin to conform to your ways.. sigh.. even fri nite was so awkward..
...
jase [@] 9:18:00 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
yay mi com is working fine now =)
finally.. and thank goodness it was jus da power supply and not anything dats relatively expensive =)
jase [@] 4:39:00 PM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
i missed out on a quadruple D by 2 marks... double frigging 69... and a doubleHD by 1and2... SUNNUVABEECH
finally had mi allucaneat korean bbq today =) was pretty fun =)
ewwww it's julie's hearts.. dirtyyyyyysigh i realli needed tonite.. thks bryan,jan,jules&dan..
ah mi goddess is finally done... all 24eps =) hope a new series comes out!
sigh...
ive never fit in anywhere over here.. thinking back from 2yrs ago.. i never did fit in.. i was always followng someone.. and i was like "oh its her **".. yeh oh wells..
jase [@] 10:34:00 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
i lost more den jus mi comfort zone on dis plane ride.. i lost mi comfort
jase [@] 10:52:00 PM
Monday, July 11, 2005
ohyeh im completed lunar legend on GBA =) almost done wif pokemon:emerald =) haah and i jus started kingdom hearts:chain of memories =)
yeh its been quite a productive gaming holiday for me =)
well...
i'm only half without you
jase [@] 10:31:00 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
it's been a lonely 2 weeks of holidays overall.. well one more week to go and hopefully things turn around.. im still waiting dat "let's catch up".. well see how it goes..
im still realli pissed off over some comments made by miss-high-and-mighty but i shall not say anything and uphold mi "freedom of speech".. u got a point jus say and if anyone blasts u back den u state your point agn or jus ignore it..
"a leopard doesnt change its spots".. i find it exasperatin dat all u need is loudness to be popular..
there is a need to put you in place once and for all but becos of ur status and who u are, u will always get away wif it..
jase [@] 11:27:00 PM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
am i suppose to feel like dis?
i jus cant let go..
i jus wish it was all a dream..
jase [@] 8:30:00 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
today was quite ok.. well went to play badminton and den hung around and den went to watch mr and mrs smith... i dunno i guess it wasnt as bad as i expected but still.. i jus cant help feel left out and like "not-in-da-grp".. oh wells..
fantastic 4 will be next week =) cant wait ahah =)
jase [@] 8:27:00 PM
Monday, July 04, 2005
u know i stare at our vdae neoprints everyday... jus hoping.. jus wishing..not a good day today =P
but at da same time.. im thinking things will never get better as it jus hasnt.. oh wells..
i need to get reacquainted wif mi pokemon =)
baka.. when i thot mi day couldnt get any worse.. they bloody licenced trinity blood.. =P sunnnuvabeech.....
jase [@] 9:55:00 PM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
i know this will not remain.. forever..
however its beautiful
Your eyes, hands and your warm smile.. they're my treasure..
that's hard to forget..
i wish there was a solution.. so i dont spend my time in confusion..
i'll turn back now and spread...
broken wings.. still strong enough to cross the ocean with..
My broken wings.. how far should i go drifting in the rain..
higher and higher..
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with..
My broken wings.. how far should i go drifting in the rain..
across the sky jus keep on flying...
what came falling from teh sky wasnt rain...
jase [@] 2:08:00 PM
Friday, July 01, 2005
if i close mi eyes i can see her.. i wanna close mi eyes forever so i will always see her
jase [@] 10:47:00 PM
