Saturday, December 31, 2005
crimson and cream...
HAppy New Year pples!
jase [@] 8:53:00 PM
Friday, December 30, 2005
right here waiting...
Dear Lord,
I pray dat u jus fix everything and make it all good agn.. God im not gonna ask for her heart back.. i just ask for You to make everything good again, if it means dat You'll make her come back to me i will fulfil everything u want me to do.. if You don't i guess im jus asking for You to make everythin good.. Lord You know mi desires and wants.. I leave it all at Your hands and i will trust You and Your plans..
Amen..
Sigh.. i love u still and no matter wad..
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)
[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby
[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby
jase [@] 12:21:00 AM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
sigh
i will see wad time tells me and wad God has to say this month...
jase [@] 1:17:00 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
...
forgotten is da word..
u go to someones party.. u dun just sit around your own little grp adn not talk to anyone else.. u dont jus sit away from anyone else.. but i guess u all jus dunno dat its inappropriate.. maybe u all dun care.. well ur own decision den..
jase [@] 2:53:00 AM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
well it's going to be christmas in 30mins ahah
so
Merry Christmas all you pple!yeh i wish dat christmas wld mean something diff and something special.. but i guess i will be disappointed in da end =P
well ONE GOOD THING THAT HAS HAPPENED! i finally got a digicam of mi own! its simple but i dun care! its mi own =) thank you MUMMY and DADDY! woooooo.. sigh
material things dun bring true happiness but i jus hafta get used to not having true happiness for awhile
jase [@] 2:31:00 AM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
ok finally 1st week fo army is over and done.. wasnt too bad =) haha spent today arvo watching vcds until forget wad time to go home ahha.. i kinda like camp =) sian part is the boringness sometimes so yeh..
wooo 10days of leave and longweekend!
i need to finish off some prezzies... =P
jase [@] 12:20:00 AM
Friday, December 23, 2005
SO TIRED.. im am officially worn out =P
cut mi hair today =D i look like john cena! ahhahaha
well weekends almost here.. i still haf 4 incompletes at da moment.. and a whole lotta cards to write tmr and sat.. die die die
hmm i wonder how christmas wld turn out =P
jase [@] 1:41:00 AM
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
happy genting first daughter! XD
sigh i feel so excluded everyone.. well it happened in aust so its happening here too.. at least it isnt dat bad here la..
thanks lyd and juuu for reminding me about myself
jase [@] 11:19:00 PM
Monday, December 19, 2005
ok 1st day wasnt so bad..
i miss having to sms un in da morning dat i love ou.. sigh
i miss waiting for you to get up of bed to reply mi smses and saying.. "why she so lazeee"
i miss rushing home after work to find u...
sigh
jase [@] 8:41:00 PM
ok i dun haf to go back to do da wolrd of narnia stuff anymore =P another 15dollars =P
man i hafta go back to camp tmr =P suxxxxxxxxxxxx
hahaha
mi greatest and most importanmt battle of mi life at dis moment and im losing =P
jase [@] 2:18:00 AM
Sunday, December 18, 2005
haha i earned 15bucks today
i smiled so much mi face hurts..
and oh joy! i come back home to see my manchester united win 2-0 =)
im quite a happy camper today =) for once....
ive set up a plan =) its going to be grand =)
the 1st and 2nd rules of fightclub
jase [@] 1:49:00 AM
Friday, December 16, 2005
if i dun make any effort or try nothing will change.. if i try my best nothing will change either.. why da ehll am i still trying..
it jus isnt fair.. no matter how much i love u.. u dun even care..
it's not fair.. i cried thru last nite.. i cried on da way home.. i cried tryin to catch up on my sleep.. im crying while typing dis..
u are da most beautiful thing on the earth to me.. but im da most vile thing on the earth to u..
to see u wif all those guys was painful.. but i haf no choice.. to hear another guy talk about u and how nice u are was painful.. to hear dat u and another guy will be "partners" was difficult..
God why do u fool wif me and hurt me further? God u know how much i love her.. You know how much i adore her.. You know how much she means to me.. yet You do dis to me..
WHY?You say it's all in Your plan? to make me feel broken and hurt is all part of Your plan? to take away the most precious thing to me and then dangle it in fron tof me but jus out of reach is all in You plan?
ger.. i believe u are the one for me and i jus wish u thot da same way.. like u did 6 months ago..
jase [@] 5:55:00 PM
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
ok onto happier things =) got some pics from bench cam from mi bdae party... ahha EH MEIIIII where are da pics from YOUR camera? =P
anyways here is my adorable mei =) haha
thank you mei and bench for organizing =)
and thanks to da "comm" for decorating ahahahah
jase [@] 1:43:00 AM
Monday, December 12, 2005
ok is dis da end of my dream?
im having my best bdae EVER.... sittin at home playing com games and broodin over wad will never be...
going back to aust was one of da biggest mistakes in my life.. da 2nd biggest mistake was meeting you.. a mistake a regret but will do anythin to relive those 2yrs we shared..
why do u hide and cover somethin u very well know is there.. ur eyes betray u
i can only imagine---------------------pauses-----------------------------------------
1.5hrs left and dis miserable day is finally freaking over..
da onli thing dat made me happy is raymond.. how sad..
i am actually lookin forward to going back to camp.. i hope to go back to where i was.. den no need to fit in and jus start from where i stopped da last time.. well 1 month very fast anyway.. plus mi leave and etc shoudl be realli quick..
sigh den back to aust.. prob emptier den i was b4 i got here.. den i hafta fit back in wif everyone agn and den start missin evertone here.. well at least mi mei going over =D hehe gives me a purpose in life..
i hate mi life..
jase [@] 6:35:00 PM
Sunday, December 11, 2005
led worship today.. wah it has beeen SO long loh.. but it's all good in da end =)
ok ive done all i can do now.. i guess dat's jus it and nothing more i can do for now..
"let there be light.. and there was light...."
wishing upon a star
jase [@] 11:10:00 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
hmmm watching mulan now on tv =P s,pore tv sure sucks man..
sigh brings back memories..
wishing upon a star.
jase [@] 11:32:00 PM
the one birthday wish...yest nite was pretty good =) everyone rem the "smile if u love me game?" haha well
Thanks all u guys for making it a good day ...
Thank you mi darlin mei and bench for organizing and tolerating mi fickleness haha =D
jase [@] 8:30:00 PM
the one birthday wish...yest nite was pretty good =) everyone rem the "smile if u love me game?" haha well
Thanks all u guys for making it a good day ...
Thank you mi darlin mei and bench for organizing and tolerating mi fickleness haha =D
jase [@] 8:30:00 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
bleahhhhh SO bloated
today was fun.. da singing was fun too =) man havent done it in ages =) haha
i had a gd day =)
jase [@] 1:49:00 AM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
im so tired and wrecked.. my body is dead.. played too much liao loh
ooh ooh ooh kuishin bo tmr!!! yaye!! ahah
jase [@] 1:01:00 AM
Sunday, December 04, 2005
there is no hope?
very probably and likely
jase [@] 9:36:00 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
i realli want u to take me back..
i look at u and i want to cry.. i stil love u onli to know dat u dun even care if im alive..
dat little grp of u all is one dat i wil never again enjoy da presence of..
ive tried to get over and move along but how? i cant.. u think i want 2 feel like dis.. i dont.. da bottomline is dat i realli still haf feelings for u... not a little.. ALOT.. feelings dat cant go away no matter wad i do..
yes God isnt fair.. but why do You take her away and den dangle her in front of me jsu out of reach.. lookin but never touching.. lookin but never able feeling..
jase [@] 10:25:00 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
kk im aching all over.. 2 bball games in 2 days =P tiredtired
sigh why am i still stuck on all these feelings.. sigh
i foresee a not so gd sunday coming up =P
jase [@] 2:37:00 AM
