Thursday, June 30, 2005
hmm haha damn restaurant wasnt open for lunch =P did u chop ur sis for me bryan? ahahha =)
well im happy =) i bought mi new funky walleta nd also da AhMyGoddess movie dvd haha =) im tryin not to watch it tonite so i can watch it tmr =) haah
well =) its been an ok rainy day =)
hm its one week down and 2 left and im still waiting on dat "let's catch up"..
i love belldandy =)
jase [@] 9:07:00 PM
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
the tide has subsided
jase [@] 8:10:00 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
jus had wongxin and da kid over =) for some anime watching =) ended up watching trinity blood and saiyuki reload instead of salm dunk =P haah got abit boring loh =)
was nice to haf someone 2 hang out wif finally =) mmf go to japan w/o me =) haha
rem 2 buy mi stuff for me ah!
WHY WHY WHY =) hahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahha -poke da kid- haha
da spirit of cute randomness has left mi house =) haha
jase [@] 4:11:00 PM
dont make me laugh wif ur air of righteousness..
as long as u hide behind a veil ur nothing but a lowlife..
show yourself or
stay out of affairs dat will get u burnt
jase [@] 3:57:00 PM
u know wad.. whoever dat is.. i know who u are now.. haha i never knew friendster was dis useful! haha
again i reiterate mi statement
Christians are selfish pplehaf u even talked to her about stuff? u prob didnt.. ur another ones of those "lookarounders".. who see wad we want u to see, dun u get it.. uve been manipulated.. im glad ur thots were like dat cos we wanted to be "low-key" and not some up-herself-let-everyone-know-im-kissing-dis-guy girl.. uve been used by the system dumbass..
i haf deleted da posts cos they were anonymous and so i dun like losers and cowards around mi beautiful BoA so yeh ahah
i reckon dis is SO none of your business esp since it doesnt concern you.. if uve seen mi friendster which i havent used in 1yr den it can onli be a few possibilities on who u are.. and again i will say dat you are a coward for not puttin ur identity available.. sheesh how many times haf i written and said about it..
u got something to say, jus bring it.. whole lock, stock and barrel.. which includes ur nameall u show me is dat u are a cowardly-cant-keep-ur-hands-in-ur-pocket person..
you want some! come get some.. im proud so wad? as if ur not proud too.. pot calling kettle black..
stop showing jus how pathetic christians haf become.. they are scared to comment and they stay anonymous yet they complain the most out of any other religion.. i for one haf never anonymously commented on things.. i got something to say i say it out loud and for everyone to see/hear.. at least i can say im honest =) haha i haf da right to voice mi views and if u try to silence me.. it doesnt work.. at da same time quit complaining about things anonymously cos it's jus downright cowardly and responsibility-shirking.. u wanna complain u haf ur name and address, jus like in da workplace.. u dont file a complain wif ur name/etc u think anyone will care about wad u said..
u hypocrite..
arent christians suppose to help those in need instead of putting them down.. i guess not.. unless you onli help pple dat are "deserving".. AHHA! i hit da right spot havent i..
ok so wad dat she deserves better? she probably does and ive told her dat myself.. but so wad! she chose me and not you or him or anyone else.. u haf no clue wad love is yeh? so sorry to hear dat.. lemme use a christian analogy.. "amazing grace dat saved a wretch like me" .. jesus loves us cos he jus does wether or not wad we do.. something like dat.. HA i used something against you which u got no comeback.. and if u do i cant wait to hear it..
anyways i completed FF8 finally and now im playing pokemon:emerald =) haah
GO SKITTY!!hehe long post today =) well im bored and unoccupied so yeh =) haha
jase [@] 10:16:00 AM
Sunday, June 26, 2005
hmmm
u know wad.. i starting to ponder wad mi fren said a while ago.. and i think dat he may be right..
"christians are selfish pple"i jus had to get bite mi lips last nite and stay cool after i heard "..i got over you.." thinking back to "when".. it prob was dat nite.. yeh and i knew some christian had to do wif it.. im half happy for you and half "duno how i feel"... yeh da matter of fact is dat you're over me but im probably 100yrs away from being over you.. if u made da transition by yourself or wif some help, have u thot how i felt or has da person thto about how i felt? it's all about you isnt it.. has been da case for da 1.5yrs we were together.. "YOU better not hurt HER" ... jus maybe she hurt me? has anyone thot about dat and asked me "has she hurt you?" or "dont end up hurting each other".. its always "jason u better not hurt her.."
BAHyeh
ThANK YOU GOD FOR TAKING HER AWAY FROM ME jsu like u did to everything else..
dis is why i refuse to go to da FOCUS camp.. i refuse to make miself part of "God".. no more.. u've screwed me over dis entire year so far.. i can do things myself now.. cos den i screw miself and i prefer it dis way
jase [@] 5:26:00 PM
Friday, June 24, 2005
hm
its funny how quick 6 months can turn a person..
funny how using my brain and actually thinking and mulling has destroyed every sense of mi being..
funny how it's so hard to get "me" back..
i shall start wif following mi heart.. to hell wif da brain.. it's all about followin mi instincts now..
wether to go focus camp or not.. im gonna trust mi instincts on dis..
sigh
imissyoubabyg
jase [@] 11:28:00 PM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
its all finished..
wad a stupid 3hr paper =P i left liek 1.5hrs into it.. cant beb bothered.. so stupid loh
well now no more exams den wad do i do.. sigh... sian...
SIAN..
jase [@] 7:31:00 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
i guess i should haf known and foresaw it b4 it came..
oh wells
sigh
i can surely tell all "those pple" dat it's not mi fault... i hate all u miscreants for saying those words to me..
why are u being so selfish.. think of her ....
if u realli love her den break it off... da worst if them all was
ur going to find a new girl over there den wad u going to do wif her.. i never realli bothered about it till now..
cos i guess now i can say ..
u got wad u want and she's faring better den i am so ARE YOU HAPPY NOW U dumbASSES?.. u never cared for me.. u onli cared about her.. fair enuf cos she is so special but why u all say "i care" when u realli dont..
funny how this all came as a dream.. which was jus so true.. was like i was reliving those last few weeks in hell..
u cant hide wad u dun say cos i can see it in ur eyes...
jase [@] 4:31:00 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
ok one last stupid 90 MCQ exam left =P dis realli sucks.. such a waste of time..
im proud to say dat i am in a holiday mood already ahah
sigh
but still.. so wad if exams are over.. dis is da 1st time i can realli say "i hate holidays".. dis means no uni to occupy mi time.. means i stay home wif nothign to do.. sigh.. i havent gotten a phone call in months.. i remember when i could jsu call germ or mi mei anytime i wanted.. no even if i want also cannot.. sux
...........
jase [@] 7:54:00 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
LEAVE HER ALONE DAMMIT how can u critisize wad u dun understand.. and den put it on national newspaper for all to see.. dis is another example of s,pore stupidity.. leave da girl alone and get it into ur minds dat wad she does is "questionable" but it is after all her own and u shouldnt go prying and announcing to da whole world.. leave her alone, she has a life u know..
mi stand is i think wad she has done is
RIGHT she has expressed her own precious views on things in her own special way and dats dat.. screw u for turning it into some "immoral" when it's jus creativity..
i hate pple who think they know it all...
there are far worse things in da world den jus nudity and provacative writing.. hypocrites, pride, murder, suicide etc..
noone has the right to critisize creativity
jase [@] 9:23:00 AM
Saturday, June 18, 2005
i cant stand things anymore..
i cant study properly.. it's jus so hard.. i need to be spurred on by something or someone.. at da mo i dun haf this extra "help".. am i righ to say dat im weak? i cant survive by myself.. do i rely too much on members of da opposite sex? ive tried so hard for 6 months an dit comes down to this..
i am pretty much useless w/o you "you" shall be a general term dis time.. oh wells...
i do hate dis place so much...
jase [@] 9:48:00 PM
Thursday, June 16, 2005
haha okok abit late on dis entry =P
yeh i watched The Longest Yard and boy was it funny =) haah i kinda liked it =) there were so many WWE and ex-WWE pple in it and adam sandler also =) ahah goldberg and kevin nash and stone cold steve austin =) ahah plus da black man from hot chicks acted in it ahah =) so funny =) will be watching Fantastic 4 wif me dad too =) cant wait cant wait!
well guess wad.. da stupid SAF killed another person.. bloody mongers.. if it was someone i knew i would go back and kick some ass.. but i shall be s,porean and "shutup" cos it is da s,porean way.. u dont shutup u get into trouble.. funny how it applies to da entire population and not jus da gov.. well u groom incompetent "commanders" so of cos pple will die.. SAF EFF OFF!
and onto another thing.. i jus read and found about da blogger dat posed nude or wadever.. even took a look at her blog.. come on man, wads a semi-porn pic compared to da hardcore shit u find all over da net.. screw u s,pore press and gov.. u make such a big noise about dis little "tease" and u never did anything about all dat pron.. how about da sggirls site.. u took wad.. 6yrs to find out about it.. man dis blogger isnt even underaged unlike those in da website.. and wads wrong wif voicing her views? i think she has every right to put up wad she wants and say wad she wants.. i support her in everyway cos i know how it feels to say mi views and get repercussions.. i hope she doesnt stop wad she's doing =) be a neo-singaporean, not some useless closeminded shit who jus sits around and complains..
damn all of u who suppress da views of pple.. you knwo who u are.. so why dun u do da "s,porean" thing and sitdownshutup.. sheesh funny how u preach and yet do diff things..
oh and i read mi frenz blog.. im begininng to want no part of this christianity thing anymore.. u look on da streets and shopping malls.. can u tell who is christian? nope.. u can onli tell when u go to church.. even when it's not sunday, during da week everything is diff... i for one am/was da same in church as in every day in da week.. ask germ.. she knows.. i voice mi views, im not afraid to utter da odd expletive, i would kick ass in a church etc.. there is not one thing i did in da army/work/etc dat i wouldnt do in church.. and i get reprimanded for this.. im no hypocrite.. instead u "bless" da true hypocrites dat lead 2 lives.. da church/nonchurch.. funny again how u dun practice wad u preach.. i get condemned cos im not a hypocrite.. oh dun get me wrong.. im not saying anything about mi "church" in s,pore, dun worry im jus sayin churches in general.. or being christian..
at least im not 2-faced.. i am wad i am and wad u see wether sunday or not is wad u get.. and i guess onli mi parents, bro and onegirl loves me for dat.. and out of this i onli haf mi dad wif me.. 1/4.. mi life is pretty shit when da pple i love and pple dat love me back truly arent here for me.. treasure it all u who haf ur family wif u and haf a partner who loves u back for who u are.. u never know when it jus all disappears.. trust me i know how it feels and it sucks..
u know i was more in a family at work wif zhiwei, faizal, janice etc den i ever was in church..
anyways im jus doing some revision for phys and bio.. i haf even less motivation den last time.. like da extended break in btwn papers realli realli sux.. nvm try mi best yada yada yada.. patooe!
oh where oh where can mi baby be.. da lord took her away from me.. bloody hell...
im not an adult.. im a youth in adult clothing.. and i like it dis way.. so screw u who think im immature.. i bite you den u know! hahahha =D
jase [@] 11:03:00 AM
Monday, June 13, 2005
hmmm dis is jus a sidethought dat i was thinking about dat nite at SYG..
there were onli 6+/30+ focus among da youth.. i think there were same number of parents to focus pple.. maybe its cos of exams, work etc.. but den why all da fake hype and excitement prior to the build-up to it.. werent there suppose to be a few more coming up for da one day? why be all "excited" and den decide not to go? i remember when the announcement 1st came bout da cheers were loud and clear.. den slowly after dat noone cares.. funny how it jus "died away".. and it is even funnier dat it can happen all da way over here too.. yeh maybe i expect too much from over here.. i jus haf to face da facts da over here is all dat great as i thought it was..
well mi highlight of the year jus came and went.. it's jus a temporary feeling, things are not going to change jus becos i went to SYG.. yeh so wad if i went ot didnt.. onli i changed.. nothing else changed.. oh wells..
going to movie tmr wif me dad =) watching Yhe Longest Yard =) hope it will be a good show =) ahah and when Fantastic Four comes out going wif dad to see also.. haha.. cos noone else to see wif wad and also there's nothing wrong wif watching movies wif ur dad =)
jase [@] 10:32:00 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
ok we are back =)
well we did not bad for SYG.. =) indoor soccer 1st, bball 3rd, touch rugby 2nd.. those are da ones i played.. as for da rest lets see wad i can remember =).. haha well done debs for coming in 1st and 2nd in her 2 swimming races.. volleyball got 4th i think and another team almost made it to da semis.. netball for winning games in da rain =P haha i cant remember anymore =P haha
it was good to jus see cheryl jie agn.. well i guess 2 years has done ts damage and i prob cant call her "jie" anymore.. but it doesnt matter.. im jsu happy to see one of mi old last-time-close frenz.. jsu thinkin back.. it was becos of da "H" thing and cheryl working at EG dat i got to know her.. yehh.. sigh i miss da good ol times =P
man i am so so SORE and UNFIt =P im like aching all over =P
tonite will be sleeping early since there is no one to talk to online anymore =P bah you.. hah hope u haf fun at camp ok =)
jase [@] 7:53:00 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005
off to State Youth Games i go.. wish us luck =)
jase [@] 10:47:00 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
ok da 2 evils are done and accounted for and i came out pretty happy and unscathed..
yeh.. now i can finally relax abit and haf a good weekend for once.. da signs are good for dat =)
well.. sigh
SYG here i come! im ready to kick the "proverbial" ass
jase [@] 8:04:00 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
hmmm i havent blogged in ages =) haha well
stupid nutrition exam is trm so wish me luck... im kinda ready for it i guess.. but i dun think ready enuf to get like vvery high.. sure pass but yeh.. well i will do some more runover today and den see how i go tmr =) wish me luck =)
the signs are good for man u.. as of now.. we signed edwin van der sar and we havent sold rooney ronaldo or rio =) so yeh we looking good for da new season already =)
haha was talking about pokemon last nite =) hehe i still like mi clefairy =)
okok update after da paper =)
jase [@] 8:46:00 AM
Friday, June 03, 2005
ok i did it.. for the 1st time..
u know it doesnt feel so tiring.. i feel da loneliness less you know.. maybe i should jus stop going altogether.. every time i go, i come back home feeling so sapped.. so tired.. weak and down.. i actually feel more energized after studying till 9pm den watching da guru and den coming back online to do more work.. funny isnt it..
i dun wanna sound mean and stuff but yeh.. ive tread water today and found dat da water is not cold.. i feel better emotionally and also no one seems to bother dat i didnt go.. fantastic! i'll see how things go and i prob will stay home next fri and rest up for SYG =) den i will jus let da sport rule mi emotions and come nitefall i will put on mi BoA and study and stay away from da happy pple..
i am my own.. i shall keep it dat way
jase [@] 11:28:00 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
well here i am slogging away tryin to study for mi exams.. not doing a realli good job tho.. not studying for 2 years does take it's toll on a person =P well not onli is mi brain tellin me to stop but mi back and hands too =P bleh..
well i will onli go church tmr nite if i managed to finish my nutrition and chem stuff.. haha an impossibility so yeh.. im not not going cos of work.. u must be joking.. its becos i realli dont wanna go cos i think its a kinda waste of time.. yeh ive said it..
oh wells...
mi life is a shambles right now.. but yeh i haf to deal wif exams... BAH haha
jase [@] 10:57:00 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
now i know how it feels to be truly alone..
its not very fun i can tell u dat..
jase [@] 1:45:00 PM
