Friday, September 30, 2005
why i am bloody trying agn... things arent going to change..
all mi going is gonna do is to make the unreachable seem even more despairing..
things wun get better...
i go wif da 0.00000000000000000000000001 X 10`-5 chance of something magical happening
jase [@] 6:10:00 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
went to play golf today wif parent.. man im so sore now..
bleargh
the rain reminded me of something i din want to remember..
chey.. sigh
there are 3 things i want to pursue but dunno if possible..
jase [@] 5:27:00 PM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
i was in the presence of an angel todaytoday turned out well so there's realli nothing to say.. i was happy like from 340-530... den things got bad for me.. sigh
jase [@] 10:31:00 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
i haf a bad feeling about tmr =P
i hope im wrongi shan't say anything but that there are alot of discourteous pple.. i'll say more or less about dat tmr
jase [@] 10:36:00 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
kirei..
wo kirei-ru..
i hate you yet i love you.. how incredibly stupid.. and u prob dun care wad i feel anyway..
thanks for all da diappointment, deception and lies..
yet why do i still love you..
jase [@] 12:44:00 AM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
kirei..
jase [@] 6:14:00 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
why da hell do i even give in..
everytime i go wad do i get out of it? nothing.. i end up feeling worse and crummy inside.. why da hell do i go thru all dis trouble.. and for wad?
im not gonna give in anymore..
u want me to go u make a change for me den..
jase [@] 11:10:00 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
...
why are u lettin these feelings creep in agn.. i dun wanna feel them anymore..
i want it but i dun wanna feel rejected again.. and as usual why da hell do i always have so "high" targets.. so stupid.. and when im able to attain it i get dumped.. wonderful isnt it..
i hate all dis crap..
jase [@] 8:33:00 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
jus watched Final Fantasy Advent Children =) it was SO awesome i tell you! =) haha i got a new crush now! ahah
TTTIIIIIIIFFFAAAAAAA haha =) there there BoA dun get jealous! there's always room for 2 =) XD ahahahhahahahaha
SHEESH
im crazy =P
hmph and maybe a bit delusional =P
jase [@] 2:23:00 PM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
okok back from camp..
well i realli haf no idea wad to say about it.. like it's kinda da 1st camp i was realli unhappy in.. i dunno man..
damn rainsigh
i actually wished i din go for camp..
jase [@] 5:34:00 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
ok off to camp tmr si i'll jus hafta put mi blog on hold =) ahah
well been trying to download FF7 Advent children.. but damn slow loh =)
kk
sigh
hope it'll be fun at camp and stuff will turn out right
jase [@] 5:47:00 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
...
it's not fair.. why cant i stop thinkin of u.. it's jus so stupid.. im trying mi best and i still cant..
it's reali pulling me down..
why did u hafta do dis..
why did i fall 4 u.. was it a mistake.. i refuse to believe dat u were a big 2yr mistake.. but how come u see it dat way..
-not looking forward to camp-
hate mi life so much..
no love 4 me...
jase [@] 10:34:00 PM
Friday, September 09, 2005
sigh
i dun see why u live so near da damn uni and still dun go for class like all us "normal" pple.. idiot..
i got da letter yest.. i dun realli know wad to make of it.. i havent read it yet.. dun realli want to either.. but oh wells.. will hafta in da end.. it's cry now or later..
jase [@] 5:36:00 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
im giving u back dat book.. love me dat much.. wad bull
yeh u prob do want me to thin dis way right.. it wld suit ur situation..
i prob wun do wad i wanted to do in dec.. but one things for sure.. i will wait dat long for you.. u better hold true to wad u said in ur letter.. u dunno how many bad things i will do dat guy if u do otherwise..
maybe i should jus start hating you and make a big scene in dec and so at we can become enemies so it wld be easier to deal.. it's an idea.. but den i do hope some day down da road we can be together agn.. till den im waiting for you..
waiting 4 u to grow up and take me back
jase [@] 6:16:00 PM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
will things go back to wad i want it to be?
wad a waste of an entire yr.. i hate everything in it..
had cell special.. talkin about BGR.. onli one face/person was swirling in mi mind.. and i jus feel so exhausted now from keeping myself from crying and trying to laugh and da stuff dat was discussed..
jase [@] 10:30:00 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
im suppose to feel better?
im suppose to accept wad uve done to me?
u must be jokingmaybe i am jus dat crap after all.. im am a useless discard
jase [@] 10:39:00 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Happy Birthday Phoebs!jus had a 2 movie marathon.. dad borrowed assualt on precint 19 and constantine.. sat in front of da tv since 7plus till now =P haah good fun tho =)
well.. things arent getting better and i guess i suffer for it everyday.. oh wells..
tmr can sleep in for abit =) woohoo
on an entirely side note.. it was nice to be hugged.. da last person u hugged me was quite a long time ago.. i am such a sad person..
jase [@] 11:12:00 PM
