Thursday, April 27, 2006
Mary belongs to the words of a song
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure
(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(She is the one), and I have to fight this,
(She is the one), a villian I can't knock down.
I see your face with every punch I take,
And every bone I break, it's all for you
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you
Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
The city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her
Everything's small on the ground below, down below
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?
(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(She is the one), and I will be haunted,
(She is the one), this gift is my curse for now
I see your face with every punch I take,
And every bone I break, it's all for you
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you
I see your face with every punch I take,
And every bone I break, it's all for you
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you
Fight on for you, fight on for you
jase [@] 9:52:00 PM
time and effort.. to no avail? sigh looks like it.. looks like its becoming a pattern.. me trying so hard and mi best but in da end, it jus falls apart..
Everyone's changing, I stay the same
a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go...
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Summer sunshine
sunshine sunshine...
jase [@] 5:20:00 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
wad a rush..
dis 3 days are absolutely crazy.. 3 mids sems and 1 stupid pointless oral presentation..
ive cleared one mid sem on monday.. have finished studying one more.. now left with the other midsem and oral.. i realli cant be stuffed wif da oral so i realli dont care anymore.. ridiculous how uni is sometimes.. da bloody timetables make no sense most of da time with everything "important" all in a close proximity and after dis suddenly a "lull" in everything.. stupid stupid stupid
i miss sunshine..
i shall be waiting..
jase [@] 4:53:00 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
end of holidays...
it's been a good week.. superficially.. deeply it has been very ardous and sapping..
for every high point there came a low..
well midsem tmr and weds.. i think im ready.. i wont fail but i dun think i'll do extremely well..
she's jus been on mi mind too much i didnt need this.. why does dis hafta happen.. i disown u damn feelings... if it were dat easy.. bleh
jase [@] 8:03:00 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
mmm half way thru da hols now =P today is study day.. ahha hafta get some work done esp after all dat play da last few days =) haha
sigh jus looking at her next to me and knowing that dat is all to it.. im probably setting myself up for da great fall in da end but oh wells..
needs and wants abit of luck
jase [@] 5:15:00 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
BEST EASTER WEEKEND EVER!!!!!i had such an awesome weekend =)
dreams became reality jus for a glimmer i wonder where things are going now? all da signs point towards da good side.. but den now wad? =P so weird... i haf absolutely no clue anymore =P
i do i realli do...spent good friday studying or trying to do some research on mi oral topic.. was a joy having her around =) i actually sat down and did work for liek a good 4-5 hours la =) den on sat had da usual badminton + hanging den went for Ugrp special =) and den went to mel's for movie marathon/sleepover =) den sunday went to church and caught up wif mummy den badminton and now im back =)
sunshine + daddy + friends + God's great love wad more could a great easter weekend consist =)
jase [@] 5:22:00 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
got quite abit done today =P or kinda jus ruled out 1 possibility of research.. couldnt find any journals for my presentation =P ahah oh wells
another good day under my belt =)
jase [@] 5:37:00 AM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
sigh...
dreams
Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".
Birds singing in the sycamore tree, "Dream a little dream of me".
Say "nighty-night" and kiss me. Just hold me tight and tell me you'll missme.
While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.
jase [@] 5:58:00 PM
it's been a sweet 5 days =)
jus dunno wad im getting myself into =P im in too deep to be able to get out of this without any scarring.. dat if it doesnt turn out da way i want it.. think positive? well i dunno.. not as easy as it sounds..
it hurts but i want more of ithaha i haf my own set of car keys now XD hee hee.. =) been going out late on tues and yest =) ahah
jase [@] 9:15:00 AM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i passed my P driving test!!!! woo hooo haha i can finally drive solo now =) haha so happy.. i was so incredibly stressed last nite la.. well thanks for believing in me =) and talking to me last nite trying to calm mi stupid brain down =) haha
yeah.. now i hafta try and do as much as possible for mi MIC pratical report den i dun need to rush on weds =) haha which is tmr =P ahah
today was a nice sunshiney day =)
jase [@] 4:14:00 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
jus got back from mel's bdae party =) haha had so much fun and i guess da main thing was her being happy =) and i think she was so mission accomplished haha =) man sing until mi throat pain ahah.. playing singstar =) all u pple in s,pore i hope u even know wad it is and if u dont go find out! haah =)
in 2 hours....HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNSHINE! yeah shining ur light upon me =)
haha
well it's been a good weekend for me =D
jase [@] 10:05:00 PM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
rechargee!!!!
jase [@] 9:43:00 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
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jase [@] 9:55:00 PM
am i kidding myself?
im slowly discovering new things and alot of it unpleasant.. but i aint gonna quit now.. i dont want to.. am i stupid to risk it for da possibility of ending up wif nothing or even a deficit? but if i do succeed den it wld be all worth it? or wld it? funny how God can bring up such games for us to play in and den to see wad our character is like? am i willing to go against the grain and give someone a new fresh chance.. a clean look.. a past forgotten and a present concentrated chance? the heart is willing but the mind doubts like hell.. all mi sensibility says "no" as the price in the end is way more den wad will be gained.. the price of nothing is more then da price of something.. does it realli matter in da end?
it doesn'tthe decision is mine and ive made it.. then why do i doubt myself so much?
God show me the way.. i have no clue how to go from here on..
i ask myself why i get mi self into these things? and why God puts me in these situations.. there's a reason.. but dis time i am baffled..
mybrokenwings
jase [@] 9:01:00 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
well... im back in the waiting room again.. there's jus no other way.. and da thing is even if i wait for how long.. i may not even get it.. but yeah no matter how painful it gets i will wait cos there's jus no other way,,
well i had a near flawless driving lesson today.. so im pretty happy wif dat..
i have faith in u.. those words echo thru da driving lesson today..
da last time i felt dis way was when
she came into mi life.. sad thing is her walking right out of it later.. but dat story is done and discarded.. i dont need to bring it up again =)
something's changed.. i can feel it..
jase [@] 9:51:00 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
you play with fire, u will get burnt..
jase [@] 12:30:00 AM
